Window Seats and Last Wishes

Goodbye and Goodnight

chances are so hard to come by now

i should never have told you to not say it back

Feel the pain teaching us how much more we can take,
reminding us how far we've come.
Let the pain burn away from our hearts.
We have time to start all over again.
If you will shine your love down here.
And make our hearts as perfect as new.
If you would shine your love down here
I promise I'll reflect it right back at you.

copeland always says it best. i just want to start over.

its up to you.

well since i dont have a camera anymore, im gonna post all of my favorite old pictures i took.

( here it goes )

you really start to notice how close youve gotten to someone when theyve been gone for one night and you feel like somethings missing.

I MISS CHRISTINA BLANCO

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that was entertaining

ARE YOU REAL OR ARE YOU A FREED IMAGINATION

the last couple of days have been amazing

Current Mood: content

Current Music: Brazil

i jsut wanted to say that i had the greatest birthday ever. thank you everyone for making it the most memorable birthday of my life. i love you all.

last night was quite possibly the best night of my life. most of my closest friends graduated last night with me. it feels weird knowing that high school is over. after graduation a bunch of people came to my house and we camped out in my backyard. thats right people, we camped out, tents and all. it was amazing, and i didnt get in trouble at all even though there was a lot of people here.

ill never forget how beautiful the stars were laying there next to natalia and bobby, it was the most beautiful thing i have ever seen adn i will never forget it. thanks everyone for making my 18th birthday/graduation party a night to remember

theres no reason for me to not be on livejournal.

life has been moving on slowly, but at the same time, it seems liek everything is moving so fast. this is my last week of high school. its te weirdest feeling knowing that ill be living in a different city in a couple of months, and knowing that my life will be turned upside down and ill have to start over. mabye thats the best thing for me though, a new beginning, a new chance to make life wonderful again.

i quit drinking soda today, its really bad for you, and i drink A LOT of soda. itll be hard, but ill survive, i liek juice.

ive built so many relationships lately that i treasure more than life in the last couple of weeks. i have the greatest friends ever. life is just an excuse to love.

oh yeah, i have a new obsession.



STYX is the best band EVER. they are my muysical taste rolled up into one amazing band. everyone should listen to them. go look through your parents cd collection, theyll more than likely have a STYX album. They are so amazing.


Domo Oragato Mr Robato

im done with livejournal.

i wont talk bad about you. you never did anything wrong. i wont talk to you anymore, because i know you dont want me to. i want everyone to know that i love her, adn i messed up, i fucked everything up. ill never forgive myself. seh wont beleive me when i say i regret everything i did wrong, but i do.

if i could, id go back to when we first met, and id never fall for her, so i could save her the pain ive put her in.

im a horrible person. i know i am

i found out last night i may be able to see kala this weekend. im nervous about it. i have butterflies in ym stomach.......jsut liek the first time i ever went to see her.

on a different note. i just got back from the mall. i hung out with tj and garrick and mike and ren and the guys from All Rights reserved (hte band im playing with tomrow) they are really good, adn really cool. we promoted the show. it should be good.

i gotta go now, ren is here and we are going to practice

it seems that latly ive been made out to be the bad guy. and i dont think i am, i love all of my friends and wouldl never deliberatly do anything to hurt them. being bickered at gets old really fast.

the countdown is still on, garrick goes to basic in 10 days. im going to miss him.

ive started to feel that no ones life would really be any worse if im not here, i just seem to be around. im still happy, but its weird.

theres an empty place in my heart right now, and i dont know what is supposed to be there. mabye when i see kala again ill feel better.

Chemistry is the dumbest class ever i really suck at it lately, but thats probably because for the last 3 days i havnt payed attention at all, i just play games on courtneys calculator.

i read star wars books, yeah, im a nerd, fuck off.

im playing a show on the 25th of march at studio 48. i dont really know what to call myself, should i be, "Ben Vangel" "Ben from anybodys getaway" i just dont know. i want to just start all over and play only new songs and never even bring up AG but thats a hard thing to do, to distance yourself from something that was such and intricate piece of your life not even 6 months ago.

im in a musical at school its called "Snoopy!!!" i play linus VanPelt. its a lot harder than i thought it would be. but ill make it through. the show is in like 2 weeks and we are way behind. my excuse is the snow.

i graduate in 2 months........ and after that.......ill never have to go back to high school.

she makes me happy. i gotta go

im really sad that Garrick has so go to basic training in liek 2 weeks, we jsut became really godo friends, and hes one of the coolest people ive ever met. i wish we had more time. but he'll be back.



im really happy that you had a great day, you deserve it more than anyone else i know

well, heres the rundown. i lost my camera. that why i havnt posted much latly, i feel like such an idiot, i jsut cant find it. i have no idea what happened to it. thats 400 dollars right down the drain. and i have nothing to do, this is when id usually be taking pictures but i cant.

even though it really sucks that i lsot my camera. everything else seems to be going really good. i have the greatest friends, the greatest girlfriend, and my parents dont really suck that much.

you should listen to the jesus and mary chain, they are amazing, and my bloody valentine too.

i dont know where to start.

lasst night was perfect. i have THE GREATEST FRIENDS on the planet.

it was liek a dream came true.

ill never forget it, ill never forget any of you.

today ive realized things.....

ive realized that i have some of the best friends i could ever wish for. ive realized that i love movies and would love to be able to maek films one day. ive realized that rens house is the second most comfortable place in teh world. ive realized that people should look more deeply into everything. ive realized that art is my life, all kinds of art, i love it all. ive realized that i really wish i could be a cowboy (i watched tombstone) ive realized that cigarettes are killing me and i really shouldnt smoke anymore. ive realized that i love sunny day real estate and death cab for cutie. ive realized that no one ever turn out to be who they think they will be. ive realized that you are what you love, not what loves you. ive realized that in less than a year, im going to be on my own. ive realized that there is one person who i want to be on my own with. and i realized the most important thing on the drive home. i realized that i am in love with a girl that lives an hour away, and she is perfect. i can still feel her in my arms, and i mean that, im not just trying to be cute, i can literally feel her in my arms, and its perfect. i realized that i am in love, and i always will be.

today me and ren had fun. we decided to be eskimos, we worked for 2 hours, and we made our very first igloo....



( come inside...... )

my gosh darn computer is not working, so my dad has to start the whole damn thing over so i lose all my music and all my pictures, and the damn thing wont even let me save them to a disk, thats how fucked up it is right now, so im not sure when ill be able to update again.

im really sad about the losing all my pictures thing, i have at least 500